lucky me

somehow, i missed him more than i can think of, even this is his third (fourth?) trip away.. everything at home runs smoothly.. i was fine, the boys were great.. no major panic alert.. and i miss him.. i thought i missed him the most when there are issues.. like when the aidan was sick in the middle of night, or the house MCB kept switched off and i have to turn it on, or when the TV set keep flickering and many more.. but, nothing like it now, this time.. so far..and still i want him to be around..

and just when i think i need him to be around, so that i can just talk to him about everything.. about how proud i was taking care of the families.. about how furious i was when people find it funny when aimar is being called as a horror-figure like (people, it's not funny!)..about daily gossips i will talk about when he's around.. whenever he is not around, i have to wait till there's a work requirement back in kl, so that i can talk and talk and talk with my best-mates over the early morning breakfast, lunch or during the trip to the 'supplier' sometimes..   and that was it.. i stayed 'silent' when i'm back in kemaman as i don't think gossiping with the boys will do any good.. but, i did sometimes.. and i stayed silent when aidan said "stupid driver kan mama... "... i stayed silent because he learned that from mama when mama decided to have a conversation by herself!.. gosh, for a person who needs to talk, it's not an easy life.. and i married to him.. and he 'physically' listens to me, whenever..so, i do miss him.

and today, when i miss him the most, he drop a FB event invitation.. dinner for two right after he reach KL, that would be the day before V-day.. we don't celebrate V-day as much as we think we don't need the day to remind us of our love.. yarr rriigghtt.. all men would say that, and i am one of the girl who falls into the trap!.. but i'm ok.. and the gestures he did with the invitation, super super romantic that i need to write it down in this blog of mine.. 

he is just a typical man. no sweet-tooth, no promises, not much of romantic gestures.. but he did what he did.. 

and after we got married, he may have not much time as he used to have.. or perhaps we got married and that's it.. but then, i stopped sending cards to him and stop buying gifts for him as well.. i guess, when we got married, we have this mutual understanding that things would be different, and no-more honeymooning as we wished for.. 

but then, once a while, when he prompt these gestures, i just knew i was so lucky to be in love with him..